Saturday, 6 September 2008

I will

I will eliminate you.
I will not destroy you.
I will just put you to the back of nowhere, where nobody can see, touch or think about you.
I will not dream about you.
I will not think about you.
I will not worry that you are better than me.
I will not worry that you think I'm a twat.
I will not worry that you are cooler than me.
I will not worry that you are prettier than me.
I will not worry that you are better suited than me.
I will not worry that all my faults are all your strengths.
I will not worry that you are better in bed than me.
I will not worry that you even touched it.
I will not worry that you have a better brain than me.
I will not worry that you have a better body than me.
I wil not worry that you have better tits than me.
I will not dream about you with porn star body.
I will not worry that my dreams will ever become true.
I will not have any more ridic dreams.
I will not think about you negatively.
I will not turn you into a super human.
I will not put you on a pedstal.
I will not try to pretend I want to met you and become your mate.
I will not hide the fact I wish you didn't exist.
I will not hide the fact I was contemplating finding where you live and strangling you.
I will not hide the fact you're a total selfish bitch.
I will not hide the fact your better than me.
I will not hide the fact I know nothing about you at all.
I will not worry that he talks to you.
I will not worry about you treading on my turf.
I will not over think the fact the only reason I am doing this to myself, is actually because of me fucking up first.
I will not think too much that I made one rash mistake, whilst obliterated, drunk, drugged to my eyes balls and depressed, but you had a relationship fully sober, fully thought through, maybe depressed.
I will not let it get to me, cos you are more reasonable than I am.
I will not worry about my past.
I will not let negative thoughts about myself ruin our relathionship.
I will not let myself compare myself to ANYONE.
I will not let me compare myself you you.
I will not worry about being different.
I will not be a drip.
I will not beat myself up.
I will not be supressed.
I will not let myself get supressed.
I will not supress myself.
I will not dissapoint you.
I will not dissappoint myself.

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